Laughter

I find myself laughing at... me. How pompous and self important I have become.

I look to my blog and see few have visited and I ask myself why others do not read what I write. At one time I had a faithful group of readers. Have they lost interest in me? Have I become boring?

I question some of the things I have written of. I admit it seems as my life right now is a tale. Much has happened that is usually only dreamed of. I have married a man that is from a story book (if you listen to my version of him. His will differ). He has showered me with many wonderful gifts. His proposal was as a fairy tale. Our wedding was ornate. To know of my married life so far you need only read an action/adventure/romance novel.

My life as a whole has been very blessed. I am well educated. My career at a young age was what many older than I dream of. I am a source of envy to my sister-in-law because I own a house and I was a manager when my brother was not (to fully understand this you must be Chinese in your thinking ;) ).

It is an interesting life. Why would anyone not read of it?

I believe I know of the reason. I have been unfaithful to the tending of this blog. I know eventually people will tire of visiting when there is a span of time with no updates. I have attempted to correct this recently but it will take time to bring them back. It took time for them to visit regularly before.

Also, I tend to forget that, much as was my reason for neglecting my blog, people have lives that must be lived. Personal life does not wait for our preferences and we become occupied with those things that demand our attention to live.

As I have recently discovered, my friend Aafrica has been traveling. She is beginning a new position. That will demand much of her time.

My friend Zeri has had his life to live. Admittedly, I did not have to await his return to blog land as others did since we email. Still, I am pleased he has resumed his writing. I have missed his writings and his comment to my posts.

Haphazard Kat, my "Hello Kitty" expert, well... at least uber fan, does not post as she once did. She has offered me good advice at times I needed it most. I miss reading of her, Lord V, and Mini-Warrior. I have read of Mini-Warrior's exploits so often I begin feel as a neglected aunt who receives no news of her nephew. I also miss her photographs. She is an accomplished photographer. I believe she could earn her living with her talent.

Then, there is my oracle JeanKFL. I have been blessed by her wisdom often. It was she who reassured me in my times of doubt of me. When she was not calming my fears, she made me smile. She has not visited in some time. I choose to believe she is busy living.

I have not heard from Intensely for a very long time. It should not surprise me as I have not visited her blog. In my defense I have changed emails and her blog is by subscription so I am unable to access her blog. I do miss reading of her. I assume she also is busy living her life. She is, after all, a new doctor.

I find myself needing to remind me I am not so important that others will stop their life to read of mine. Also, I write this for me and for any one who cares to read it. I have always believed that in some small way, what I write could help someone else. Perhaps in the ramblings about my life there is a source of help or encouragement, if not by my writing then by the writing of my wise friends. But If no one cares to read it, it remains written for me.

I will write. As I settle to a routine what I write may bore some. With upcoming under ways I may write more... it may become more boring. Who can tell until the day arrives.

Yuki meows "Hello!"