Have you wondered what it would be like if different choices wee made? Perhaps even to exist as someone else. Surely I am not the only person who has asked these questions of themselves.
I was very recently told I am too rigid in how I think. This person believes I must plan everything in advance, I understand things too literally and I speak too honestly. They wonder of what has happened in my life that has cause me to do these things. In spite of myself, I felt compelled to answer these things.
I do not believe I am rigid. I am only sure of what I think. I did not arrive to my conclusions lightly. I think of things the way I do because I am convinced they are accurate thoughts. If I am given new information that is conflicting with what I believe then I consider if there is a change to be made or to ignore the new information. A rigid person dismisses new information without reviewing it.
What is wrong of planning? Is there a sin I do not know of for knowing, as well as can be, what is expected and when? For me, planning is simply choosing a goal and considering how best to achieve that goal. How am I different from another? To take a holiday requires planning. What is the cost? How will I get there? Where will I reside one I arrive there? To be sure, everyone plans. It is only some that do not plan well.
Perhaps my literal reception fails because English remains challenging at times. I continue learning so perhaps only patience is required of the speaker. After all, I have only recently begun to understand jokes in English.
Honesty? Perhaps this will answer to being "too honest." I do not understand how one could be too honest. A person would choose for me to lie to them rather than cause some slight, but short lived embarrassment or anger? Would they rather I tell them they look foolish while in private or allow the public to tell them and suffer greater embarrassment? If I tell this lie and allow my friend to suffer greater, what friend am I?
To be someone other than me is foolish thinking. I am living my fantasy. I have a husband I adore and that adores me. I have a beautiful son who brightens every day for me. Why would I want to be someone other than me?
I will remain a rigidly honest, planner. I will remain me.
